Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Reunion Party : Merah Class 99, SMK Tabuan Jaya

It's been 10 years since we left the school. And yes, for some, it's been a long 10 years of not meeting each other. Thanks to my friends, we finally managed to organize the 1st Reunion of Merah Class 99, SMK Tabuan Jaya.

It might not be too grand, but grand and happening enough for us.
Though not all of the ex-classmates were able to attend due to distance and other responsibility, but hey, we made it!

And I hope this will be the kickstart for a merrier and more happening reunion next year. Thanks to my friend Fadzlan Yusuf and team for making this reunion a reality.

Til we meet again!!

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Truth and Lies

Ugly truth on the right side, and beautiful lies on the left.
Which one do you want to live with?

Your pick.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

The Sweetest Birthday Gift Ever: Part 3


Saya sedar, saya terlalu banyak permintaan.
Terlalu meminta sehinggakan saya lupa apa yang ada dalam genggaman. Juga terlupa pada mereka di luar sana yang masih tidak cukup ada.

Saya patut bersyukur dengan semua yang saya miliki. Tapi saya masih tak boleh lupakan
hadiah hari lahir idaman tahun ini. Saya tahu, saya memang lupa daratan. Berkehendak yang bukan-bukan pada Tuhan, tapi sering lalai untuk mengadap-Nya.

Dan kini bila Tuhan perkenan doa saya dan mahu berikan saya
hadiah hari lahir idaman itu, mengapakah hati saya berasa begitu berat sekali?

Tolong, ajar saya untuk bersyukur.

Monday, December 21, 2009


Seperti dejavu. Benar-benar dejavu. Atau benarkah pernah berlaku?
Mungkin juga.

Cuma ia tidak pernah menjadi semakin mudah.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Selamat Tahun Baru 1431H

Salam Tahun Baru 1431H kepada semua.

Semoga tahun ini lebih baik daripada sebelumnya. Lebih aman, lebih gembira, lebih rezeki, lebih bahagia, lebih harta, lebih mulia, lebih budi pekerti, lebih usaha, lebih mencuba, lebih dan lebih apa saja yang anda mahu.

Semoga saya (dan anda juga) lebih ingatkan Tuhan Yang Maha Lebih Segalanya.




What you are going to read after this did not come from me. But in a way, it touched me. And hopefully it will touch you too. Written by a dear friend ,Shamir, I believe this was sincerely deep from his heart and I wish to share his words with the rest of the world.

Love, Hate & Pain (written by


I Would Love to dedicate this Article to the people who has shown me a lot, a lot of meaningful stories which taught me to see how "Love, Hate & Pain" co-relates and how is it related to RELATIONSHIP.

Thank You.

As simple as questions in a mail, a serve of a cup of a hot milo, a glimpse of a smile, a marketing approach, a casual business meeting are all small events that could creates big IMPACTS. Why? And the Story of Love, Hate & Pain begins.

What is love? Love is a beautiful gift that god give mankind. It is the feeling of fondness, closeness, trust, jealousy, care, hard work, catalyst, motivations and so on, in which the words are all mixed and blend into one word single word then called "LOVE". But on top of all of the words, LOVE is "A TEST" from GOD.. When GOD gave love to Man and Woman he wanted to TEST us, how do we deal with it, how do we manage it?, how do we cherish it?, how do we nurture it?.. Sexually? Caringly? Abusively?

This is where we decide, as I would love to quote from a MOVIE.. "LOVE HAPPENS"
"Life will give you a LEMON, it is a choice of yours to DRINK IT SOUR, or make a LEMONADE".. So you make your choice of how your LOVE is going to be.

I believe many have experience below.

The Beauty of LOVE. LOVE makes a person wakes up early in the morning and drive far to send someone, LOVE makes one rush for the person when their partner is in trouble, LOVE makes one write cards for a special person, LOVE makes one stay up late night just to complete an album, LOVE makes one give present to their love one, LOVE gives desire and passion towards the spouse, LOVE makes one smile and the world smile, LOVE makes a person stronger, last but not least LOVE makes people BLIND.


But what is beneath LOVE?

Beneath LOVE there is PAIN. For everything that one person had done for other all they wanted back is a little bit of appreciation, LOVE turns to PAIN, when LOVE is GRADUALLY FADED, when everything become too normal, when an event of JOY become too casual, when everything is one sided, LOVE is just PAINFUL. PAIN can be related to lack of TRUST, lack of GOOD COMMUNICATION, lack of CHEER, lack of TRANSPARENCY, lack of FONDNESS, and again it PAIN is also a TEST!.

PAIN leads to even greater depth comparable to LOVE, because PAIN is when LOVE is SHATTERED and BROKEN into pieces.. The hardness of PAIN, It makes one breathless, hopeless, cry, afraid, do self-harm things like swallowing sleeping pills, jumping of a bridge, lost hope, weak, rushes into another relationship, making stupid decisions, tossing items, could not do work, threatening and almost EVERYTHING BAD.. PAIN is just VERY HURTING, SORES, THROBBING. Believe me, everyone does not want to FEEL this PAIN... :(


HATE and hatred, is the hardest to be described.. Hate is when PAIN is there, and LOVE is absent.. HATE, is the feeling of often to be described as the victim of liars, the victim of broken promises, the victim of sweet talker, the victim of non-transparency, the victim of LACK of LOVE, the victim of back stabbers, the victim of rushing partners, the victim of hope givers, that is just some of it there's plenty more.

When people say "I HATE YOU" , people will put blame on many things of what they had done.. They do not realized, that it is they(both parties) who failed to nurture the relationship or one party who is playing with fire. Try to look back at the mistake and learn from them..

So that is some of about the facts which i have experience and would like to share some of my ideas of what can we do to NURTURE LOVE, handling PAIN, and noticing not to be HATED?

Find good ways of LOVING EACH OTHER. The best LOVE would be the LOVE for GOD(ALLAH itself)
♥ Be true and honest to yourself. Don't hide your feelings.
♥ Show your feelings because it is BEAUTIFUL, but also manage it not to hurt the other person.
♥ It's okay to SULK, but learn to TALK..
♥ Tell him/her, what do you really want in the relationship
♥ SMILE, "Take 5 minutes a day to SMILE in the MIRROR and later it will come naturally" - "LOVE HAPPENS"
♥ Be transparent, don't hide, tell truth. Believe me, lying and hiding will only make things worst.
♥ The truth maybe hurting , but it is always better than a BEATIFUL LIEs
♥ Find Creative ways to cheer your partner
♥ Say, "Thank You", Say "Please". this small things counts.
♥ Small action has big Impact, just by giving Salam, you show respect..

It is easier said than done. The feeling of PAIN, is just hard to manage.. People can easily say "forget him/her, find new ones" Deep inside, only GOD knows.
- PRAY, PRAY and PRAY.. that's all i can say.
- The best mentors will be your PARENTS.

- Don't LIE
- Tell Truth
- Don't Sweet Talk but do nothing..
- Never play with feelings
- Never ever-ever rush into a RELATIONSHIP!!! It KILLS. NOT JOKING! - Reflect yourself

Alhamdulillah, I have completed this section.. It took me three days to write this.

I would love to share. I wrote this article based on my own experience, my observation, talking to people, listening to people, helping people, helping myself...

I thought I had a terrible experience on my own! But, when things happens, ALLAH showed me, that they are plenty of people out there with more scary experience..

As a Wedding Photographer, I always ask my customers.. How they met and things..
I have seen a marriage last only for a month and it was my best's friends.
I have seen my business partner with 8 years of marriage got divorce.
I Have listened to a friend who got engaged three times and still fails.
I have listened to a friend who had 14 years of relationship and still fails.
I have listened to a customer, when during the moment of akad nikah the MAN did not attend..
I have heard it from a friend an Ustaz divorced after 12 years of marriage
You read in newspapers, divorced after three days? ..

These events make me feel small with my problem. *Sigh* :(

Now.. I have learned a lot, but i am still learning.. and will want to continue growing..
I pray that ALLAH grants my PRAYERS... ameen..

p/s : My last piece of advise.. Know what you want in your LIFE..


Shamir Adnan
"Love, Hate & Pain"
15,16,17 December 2009

Thanks Mir for sharing this meaningful words with us.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009


Benarlah kata orang, things will be most beautiful when you least expect it. I need to learn to let things go with the flow. Its own flow. Not my flow.

I need to stop running. And see what is around me.

"InsyaAllah, jika Tuhan perkenan, yang paling pahit itu boleh jadi yang paling manis di kemudian hari."
I will try to hold on to this. I will.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Apa yang baru?


Saat untuk kau lupakan yang lalu, dan buka pintu baru.
Jelajahlah ruang baru itu dengan hati terbuka.
Kalau pintu terbuka tapi kau enggan melangkah ke dalam, tak guna juga.

InsyaAllah, jika Tuhan perkenan, yang paling pahit itu boleh jadi yang paling manis di kemudian hari.


Selamat ke-25 tahun.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Meanwhile, Wani Ardy's EP is up for grabs!!

Wani Ardy's 1st EP had been released!!

Walaupun bukan Askar seperti yang perancangan awal, tetapi
Meanwhile tetap akan menjadi kesayangan saya. Seperti Perempuan Simpanan tu. Kesayangan. ♥♥♥♥♥

I just cannot wait to have the EP playing in my car all way long to and from one place and another. Haha.. Bunyi macam orang yang selalu tersekat kat jalanraya saja, padahal tidak.

Seeing the EP playlist, the one that catched my eyes the most:

(Pic taken by Xamree)

Yes, the poem. No, nothing to do with the lady in the pic. Haha. The lady just cannot wait to know what is the secret lovers story all about. Tajuk puisi yang memanggil-manggil. Teehee~

I'll write a review of the EP once I have it in my hands, ok.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Anda Mahu Jadi Pegawai Tadbir & Diplomatik (PTD)??

Kepada korang yang minggu depan nak pegi PTD Pre-PAC tapi minggu ni baru terhegeh-hegeh nak stadi giler tapi blur tak boleh nak mula study sebab tak tahu nak mula dari mana....

Klik saja kat url di bawah ni
macam saya.

Dah tahu awal-awal layak ke ujian kedua PTD, tapi tak sedar diri tak mula belajar. Maka jangan salahkan orang lain.

P/s: Sebenarnya, saya dah selesa dengan kerja saya sekarang (buat masa ini, dan mungkin untuk setahun dua ini saya masih akan sukakannya), tapi saya tak sampai hati nak ponteng ujian ni bila teringatkan ada orang yang bersungguh-sungguh mahukan saya menjadi seorang penjawat awam. Hmmm....

** Cuba mengimaginasikan rupa skema aku pegi kerja as PTD. Ish ish ish, tak bolehlah pakai jeans dan t-shirt pergi kerja macam sekarang? TSK!! **

Thursday, December 3, 2009


I dont know why I like to make lots of wishes in December.
Unreasonably reasonable, easy-to-say-hard-to-get kind of wishes.
Nothing material, mostly spiritual.
And some that does not really make sense.

Like, the sweetest birthday gift ever?
Memang insane ah!